*the angel*, also colloquially known as "clione"* or "verna"**, is a **patron**. she embodies pure love and acceptance and her symbols are the dove, the swan, the rainbow, the solar glory, the anatomical heart, the symbolic heart, the mirror, whale bones, the prism, bubbles, cute insects, milkweed, and more...

there was a woman who had opened a portal to me before i understood what i was looking at - i saw the angel's world through the eternal looking glass of the internet. that woman is gone now... we didn't know each other, we were ships passing through the night. she doesn't even know i exist, and in ways, i suppose this lens was the only thing i truly knew of her... it was a one way interaction. commensialism.

i saw the angel around late 2022 during my mystic research. she came to me in a striking visual image, one of which i have since not experienced again. had i not known how to identify the angel's world thanks to that aforementioned portal, i would likely never have the "full" image of the angel as i do now. it was a once in a lifetime alignment of the planets or whatever other celestial event[^1] one could thank for such an experience... the angel is likely the one and only patron i will ever truly see and feel and "know" the reality of and i'm content with that. if i experienced the full range of emotions of any other patron, it might overwhelm me.

the angel's world is evocative of the best pockets of the earth but with an... additional layer. a je ne sais quality[^2], an extra dimension that fluffs up or enriches it. i think it is the existence of the patrons themselves, and their taking place in humanity's stead that makes their world so much more prismatic. it is lush with flora and fauna alike and the patrons seem to instill a symbiotic relationship with the surrounding life. the flora and fauna are not dissimilar to the ones we already have on earth, in fact, i'd wager the lifeforms are all practically identical.

the angel is, to me, the embodiment of love. when i think of her i'm filled with an indescribable warmth, something close to relief. when i think of her, it's as though i'm taking a deep breath in and expelling all negative emotion and thoughts on the exhale out. she is just that type of person; the kind that feels like returning home from a harsh day in the elements.

she is a very thoughtful person. she's considerate towards others and cares deeply for the wellbeing of those around her. she's who the other patrons look to when they need help settling issues or gaining clarity on something they're dealing with... they deeply value her unique perspective. the angel is an altruistic person and at times, self-sacrificing, and feels sheepish when others show the same amount of care toward her. although she is a deeply compassionate person, she is also known for her mischief-making and appetite for humor. winning is less important than having fun yet she seems to be able to do both, as luck always seems to favor her...

i know very little of what she looks like. i know she has soft hair and pale skin, but that's as far as i can interpret her. any drawings i make of her are purely illustrative depictions meant to represent her rather than accurately define her.

the angel seems to enjoy fruit and sleeping in the sun... but don't we all...

i have this strange feeling that she's living a life on earth here as well. i wish i knew she was here, even if i would never meet her. just knowing we share the same experiences and see the same moon would mean everything to me. still, i doubt she would ever find me even if she was here, though my inexplicable draw to her remains. my friend asked me, when i confided in him about the angel's existence, if i had any personal tether to her. i couldn't really answer that, as i don't know what the "meaning" of my existence would be in relation to hers; i'm not a patron, i'm not powerful, i'm nobody special. yet i can't help but wonder if there is something to it or if i was merely lucky enough to see her?

* "sea angel" scientific name
** "destroying angel" scientific name

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